this one's about you, sorry

making out to texas chain saw massacre
praying head down thinking sally would you be mad
i know you get freaked out when i get like that
drawing up plans for a girl who doesn't do anything like me
i miss you
i don't know you
i made you up in my head

put me down

really good to see you again
do you think we could

feel a little bad about how we ended things
i'm sorry for getting mad

hope you're alright
could you call me something else

have you caught any fish lately
i remember you liked doing that

i think we could
can we try touching

i want you to eat me when i stop being useful
i'm just trying to catch a break
and my big sister will tell you i'm not just being mean
'cause i found you
and i love you
but would you please put me down

half

i don't want to lose half of whatever i figured out on you

can we turn the lights off
i can't see your face
give me a chance, i promise i'll be good
give me a bite, i promise i'll taste good

Gettingready

i'm calling it off
i'm keeping myself down
i'm getting ready

4

i wish i could get away from you

i'm like a sick cow
rolling big brown eyes
it's your call, babe
are we going out or what

i'm like a freakshow
rolling big black lashes
got my collar on
girl shut up, you're literally vanilla

called you four times in a minute
just to hear myself breathe
couldn't get you on the line
bet you're having so much fun

mom im pregnant

you make me want to be so domestic i feel sick
you give me none of the teeth
and i can't make up the difference
i said i feel sick
could you get a pail for when i can't hold it anymore

you haul me into the bedroom like i'm your dog
you let it look like you're hurting me
and i can't make up the difference
i said i want you to bleed
could you grab me a bandaid for when i say i'm sorry

told myself i wouldn't beg you to fuck me
stick your fork in my ass baby i'm done
and i don't want to think about the difference
i said i feel wrong
could you pick up dinner tonight
i think i need a minute

take me to the gas station bathroom
i swear i'll be super sweet
you don't have to look me in the eye anymore
just let me bite down on something soft
before you forget about me

kept myself up pretending you were different
sorry i think i'm repeating myself
i said i feel sick

BIG SISTER!!!

my big sister plays in the rain
she's taller than me
she likes airplanes
and guns
and when i fuck myself i try not to think about you
it never works and i just end up feeling weird

my big sister calls me a different name
she gets in fights with my mom
and smokes on the patio
and when i look in the mirror i hope i'd see her there

my big sister gives me a hug
she smells good
and i want to be here forever

my big sister pulls my hair
she tells me i'm pretty
and when i let you fuck me i try not to let myself cry
i hope it always works